Motherhood changes you.
For starters, motherhood has made me anxious.
I never used to worry beyond what I considered a normal level. Now that I’m in the depths of motherhood, I find myself thinking about the worst case scenario in every single situation, especially in regards to my children. Plane, boat, and even simple car rides or trips to the grocery store (baby snatcher when I leave my cart unattended!) are now tainted by the “what if” scenarios that are highly unlikely, but nonetheless possible.
I am so anxious that I have an emergency binder.
I jokingly call it the “If Gretchen dies” binder. It is insane (like, literally borderline crazy) how often I think, “my husband needs to know this in case I die tomorrow.”
But motherhood has made me take better care of myself.
I want to be one of those 95-year-olds who are still be-bopping around town. I can’t promise I’ll still be running 5Ks, and I sure as heck won’t be gardening. But I am interested in still being an “active senior.”
Motherhood has changed me, more for better than for worse.
I know I’m not alone. How has becoming a mother changed you?
Disclaimer and a note on axiety: I am a mental health professional. I don’t have true, full-blown Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I use the word “anxiety” somewhat loosely in this post. While I do not think my anxiety is as serious as some people out there, I do believe it qualifies as anxiety nonetheless, as it is a worry that I can’t quiet. If you are worried about your anxiety or other issues of mental health, I urge you to seek help with a professional.
Are you looking for help now?
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1-800-273-8255
(If you are in an immediate crisis, go to your local emergency room)